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Exit Zero
Alekh · builder · learner · seeker
No. 01 — The Log

What I'm learning

A living index of topics in progress, finished, and queued up — organized by area, tagged by status.

01

Web & Frontend

2/7 done
React internals fiber, reconciliation Learning
CSS layout systems grid, container queries Done
Web animations WAAPI, view transitions Learning
TypeScript types generics, inference Done
Accessibility ARIA, focus management Learning
WebGL / shaders GLSL fundamentals Planned
Web performance Core Web Vitals Planned
02

Systems & Backend

2/7 done
Distributed systems consensus, replication Learning
Databases indexes, query planning Done
Rust ownership, async Learning
Concurrency locks, channels, actors Done
Observability tracing, metrics, logs Learning
Networking TCP/IP, QUIC Planned
Kubernetes operators, scheduling Planned
03

Machine Learning

2/6 done
Transformers attention from scratch Learning
Linear algebra foundations Done
Backprop autodiff by hand Done
Tokenization BPE, byte-level Learning
Diffusion models DDPM, sampling Planned
RL basics policy gradients Planned
04

Craft & Foundations

2/5 done
Algorithms graphs, DP Done
Type theory lambda calculus Learning
Technical writing this site, mostly Learning
Git internals objects, refs, packs Done
Regex & parsing PEGs, recursive descent Planned
05

Myself Going Zero

1/7 done
Meditation breath, returning Learning
Letting go non-attachment Learning
Stillness sitting with silence Learning
Impermanence this too passes Done
Ego becoming nobody Learning
Presence the only moment Planned
Surrender acceptance over control Planned
No. 02 — Built & Hosted

Things I made

Projects I host and keep running. Each links out to the live thing.

No. 03 — Notes

Writing

Short notes, published while the ideas are still half-formed. Click any to read.

2026 · 06
A rerender is not a repaint
Three different 'expensive' things hide behind one word, and React only owns one of them.
5 min
2026 · 06
Make the retry boring
Networks fail twice: once when the request is lost, and once when only the reply is. Idempotency is how you stop caring which.
6 min
2026 · 06
Backprop is just bookkeeping
The chain rule you already know, plus the discipline to remember what you computed on the way down.
5 min
2026 · 06
Git is a filesystem in a trench coat
Once you see the four object types, every confusing command turns back into plain data.
6 min
2026 · 06
Going to zero
Most growth is addition. This is the other direction — subtraction until only what's true is left.
4 min
2026 · 06
The silence was here the whole time
Meditation didn't add calm. It removed the noise that was hiding it.
4 min
2026 · 06
On becoming nobody
The ego is a full-time job. This is what happens when you quietly resign.
5 min
2026 · 06
Going Zero — on unbecoming
What happens when you stop adding and start removing.
5 min
2026 · 06
Who is asking?
The Ramana Maharshi question that keeps stopping me cold.
4 min
2026 · 05
Implementing attention from scratch
On getting lost in matrix shapes and finding my way back.
6 min
2026 · 05
Welcome to the log
Why I finally started writing in public, and what to expect here.
2 min
2026 · 05
Tools I use every day
The unglamorous list of what I actually open.
2 min
2026 · 05
On building in public
How I think about the trade-offs of shipping early.
2 min
2026 · 05
The breath is always here
Why Vipassana works even for restless engineers.
3 min
2026 · 04
What I learned this month
A monthly roundup — the April edition.
2 min
2026 · 03
Consensus, explained to myself
A plain-language walk through Raft, mostly so I remember it.
7 min
No. 04 — Context

About this place

No name, no headshot — a record of trying to understand things in public.

Who
Alekh — builder, learner, and occasional seeker of stillness
This site
Exit Zero — subtract until only what's true remains. Notes on code, systems, and the inner life.
Currently
Going deep on distributed systems, transformers, and myself
Approach
Build the smallest version, then grow it. Remove before adding.
Going Zero
A personal project in subtraction — less noise, more signal, in code and in life
Reach me
alekh4u@gmail.com or github.com/programmatrix88